Dengan Bismillah

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Dengan Bismillah

Fame

Hello darlings!

Not so much of an update, yeah i am still not in the mood of updating and am clearing up my fs account (i'm closing it down tomorrow).

Read Ida's post on whether i'll be selling kueh raya this yr. The answer is yep yep. I will post the harga soon, paling lambat senin aku bgtau wokeh kengkawanssss....

So sementara haku mengeksplore bahan bacaan yang kubeli pada hari ini (i bought 10 books! am i insane or what LOL...), let's check out the pretteh from my two favourite gentlemen: Kris Allen and Adam Lambert - Kradam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

which reminds me, i need to take my photos for the kradam vid project and send it to meg. hmmm kena makeup sket nih.. kasi ada glittery sket :p wahahahahah :p









kris and his bb adam would like to say goodnight to all of you for your time.



see ya guys soon ok :)

One

I don't give a rat's ass over so many things.

But I hate it when people start to judge me based on my actions, based on what I stand up for. The way I choose to live my life.

I am not in the IN crowd, neither have I ever been in the majority. I am always the minority on things.

So for once, I let people know what I really think of things and people made a big fuss about it? Start to say bad things about me? Judge me of who I am?

Questioning whether am I a true Malaysian?

Let me tell you one thing. As much as I disagree over anything over anyone, any issue compared to the other, anything in particular, I always believe in one thing: whenever someone is saying something about you or others, voicing their opinions or just saying things in between, look at their capacity. Not to judge who they are as a person based on the said statements.

In other words, not to be judgmental.

Hence, more often than not, I would like to just leave it as be. I want to live in a place where unicorns and koalas get to live in perfect harmony. I do not want to have all these hatred thoughts inside my head, as I believe there are always other alternatives to solve things.

I bet a bunch of people will be disowning me once this is out. Probably their lives are better off without having a trace of knowing me, even at the slightest bit. I know you hate me.

You may say that I'm a dreamer.

But I'm not the only one.

All These Things that I have done

I noticed that I have been slacking well too much in writing those tiny little things about my life. Partially out of laziness, most of the time because of too much ongoing things in my life, some of it because of my Kradam obsession (I can talk about this one like, forever! Who wants me to update more about Kradam in my blog please, a show of hands!!!), and of course, me thinking that my life is so plain, nobody would even take interest of whatever the heck that I am doing at the moment. heh.

Short updates about meself:

Happy Birthday, Mama

My mother celebrated her birthday on July 6th! My brother and I got her one heck of a pressie and I got her a cake too to boot :) srsly, moist chocolate cake from delicious rocks my world right now! And we broke tradition this year by not buying her a birthday card, and instead got her a huge family portrait of all of us, signed by everyone. Apparently both mom and dad loves it (I know you want one, dad! We’ll do one on your birthday next year okeh… wait, your birthday is my birthday too LOL!), of course whose idea was it anyway (points finger to self, yeah I am so tak malu when it comes to these kind of stuff). Mom, you are 51 years young, you know that? I do not have to write a lengthy essay to show to the world how much I love her, because of course, it’s so friggin obvious! I talk about her all the time, do i? hehehe….

Show Me the Money

I am totally broke this month. Mostly due to buying pressie to others (birthdays, weddings, et cetera whatever is related). Wait, is that considered a news here? Hell no, right? Hahaha :p

Movies Galore

I watched Ice Age 3 and Public Enemies this month and I would say:

i) Ice Age 3 was hilarious! I laughed all the way from the beginning to the end. One heck of a movie for you guys to watch together with your younger sibs and kids (though please do not make too much noise in the cinema or spoil the scenes or something to that effect. I was gave a kid a stink eye while watching the movie because he just cant stop being noisy! Gahhhhh!!!!)

ii) Public Enemies? Of course I need to have some Johnny when I was on long leave, right? Johnny did a very good job in this movie, though there are times I’m finding myself mesmerized by his royal hotness. I mean come on, 2++ hours of him in suits!!!! Who would not love that, right??? I drooled too (thank goodness I watched the movie alone hehehe) Personally I think he has becoming less American and more of a world citizen. The movie is very Michael Mann I must say. Watch it and you will surely understand what I’m trying to say here. And oh, most ladies wont love this movie because it’s more of a guys movie thang. Me? I love movies, and I love Johnny. Need to say more?

iii) Maybe I should go watch Harry Potter after work today. We’ll see if I have the guts to sneak out from the twin towers right on the dot and go to TGV unnoticed (and had my office tag hidden somewhere hahaha). Bad idea....

From This Moment On

I took a long break from work, went back to my hometown, my cousin got married (yay! They really mesh you know, I mean, seriously.) The bride looked so radiant during her wedding day, she looked gorgeous too :) The groom is pretty dashing himself (he’s Indonesian btw) and they looked so in love! Though there’s an unfortunate event happened on their wedding (I do not want to talk about it, as it’s not my story to tell), I think it makes their bond stronger than ever. Congrats to both of them!

Death of a Great Man

My grand-uncle passed away in Singapore on the same day my cousin got married. I had a some sort of premonition that this might happen, it came in a dream like twice within 2 weeks time and when I found out that it happen, I did feel a little something. Déjà vu, maybe? I had the same thing a month before my grandmother died and I think there were other occasions where I had the same thing as well and then the person died later. We couldn’t go to pay final respect to him as we were all up North, so some of my relative down South managed to go. Al-Fatihah to my Tok Long, Mohamad Razak bin Razak (who, btw looked like my Nenek and Tok Su. And yes, white/grey hair gene runs in my family).

New news, maybe?

I am broke (gaaahhh why am I repeating myself????).

New Additions

I believe from this month onwards a bunch of us, the unmarried ones will go absobloominlutely broke since there are like, a bunch of my friends who’ll be having their baby this month forward. Congratulations peeps, sorry if I could not make it to meet your newest addition to your picture-perfect family frame, maybe we’ve all drifted apart thanks to whatever the crap we’re faced with that’s well hidden under the code name “commitments”, but well, I’ll drop a line for sure :D I am not that mean ok!

Farah and Kradamania

I love Kradam so feckin much and watched the cellcast on weekends and I must say, Kris has improved a whole lot!!!!!! You guys should go and listen to his rendition of The Killers’ “All These Things that I’ve Done”. Kris Allen is a Rockstar in my world (and Mr Lambert would be more than happy to hear that one, he’s his bestie in the wholewide world right now hehehe). And I can go on forever when I start to talk about the way Adam Lambert moves and his perfect 10 eye makeup!!! And I am sooooo joining Meg on the vid thing, she rocks!

Something for my (not so big) brain

I only managed to read three books this month: The Secret, 101 greatest people that never lived, and Girls of Riyadh (am finishing it soon so will write about it later). The Secret needs no introduction, it’s about laws of attraction and how should we optimize our potential in our daily lives. Elham will definitely have a say about this book (or any motivational book whatsoever, this friend of mine certainly has good views that needs to be written in a book somewhere!). As for 101 greatest, well… I would say more often than not we idolizes or look up to some of the greatest figures of the world (Socrates, Gandhi, Mahathir, FDR, Churchill, Hitler even…) but there are others who would say “yeah they’re influential, but it’s bullcrap to ignore the fact that our culture is shaped by literature, movies, advertising campaign, cartoons even”. A good read for sure. So, who do you think shaped Malaysian culture, totally fictional but certainly impactful?

The End of Storytelling

My answer? One of them is simple and plain: PETRONAS commercials. I am not saying this because I need to remain loyal to the country and to people who fed me every single day (though if I get to do more work that involves meeting people and write creative things other than law-related stuffs would be much better), because their commercial has something to say about us all. It symbolizes who we are as Malaysian, having a total Malaysian outlook, not merely emphasizing on just showing off those Pan-Asian faces who most of the time, sorry to say, rely too much on their looks. You can feel the Malaysian-ness in it, and of course, within yourself upon watching them (sometimes it’s funny, sometimes it’s gut-wrenching and I ended up crying for days).

So it really broke my heart when I heard Yasmin Ahmad was pronounced dead on July 25th. Her work encompasses the essence of true Malaysian, regardless of race, gender, religion, age, classes, everything. Underneath all these barriers that we indirectly put ourselves in, there’s something so Malaysian about ourselves that we, sometimes do not dare to talk or divulge more. Yasmin touched our hearts in so many ways by using her works as medium to the masses. Malaysia is in deep loss of someone, who I consider as a true Malaysian in its purest form, who broke so many cultural barriers just to prove one thing: WE ARE MALAYSIAN.

Al-Fatihah to Yasmin Ahmad.

OK I need to continue doing my work now (today is so a sucky day, man… I am at the bottom of the food bloody ass chain and ppl can easily ask me to do things at the very last minute! I think my boss really hates me for asking me to go to the bloody ass seminar instead of attending our company’s AGM. Srsly big boss, you hate me, right??? You really, really HATE me do ya?).

But then again, I am still an ikan kembung. Who am I to fight with ikan jaws?

Think.

The Park Bench Song

Note: try to pronounce bench a la ppl from the south of US. You'll get the rest of my posts ok.

Facebook is a bench to me tonight. Just when I thought I can upload my pictures there since I havent been uploading much about my actual life be it here or there, Facebook is screwing me big time. Why on earth are you not allowing to upload any of my pictures there? Bloody hell.

I have been thinking of writing more here but well, the firewall in my office is a bench too. They totally blocked me from updating stuffs here, and when I am home I would be too tired to even try to type a coherent sentence in order to inform you guys about my current state of living. This results in too many cobwebs blocking my blog.

But as it turns out I couldn't sleep tonight, so you got yourselves a new entry from me. Pretty boring one, seriously. But heck, this is one of the reason why I haven't been updating and becoming rather obscure from public (in this context, my friends and of course, you guys who read my tiny space).

Am asked me in her comment in one of my last posts to write about my birthday. Well darling, this is partially my birthday entry because I bought so many books for myself throughout the month as a treat! To top it off, I received two more as gifts :)

And oh, should any one of you want to give me more books, you are more than welcomed to do so :)

As I told you guys previously, I have bought so many books for the past month! And that does not include my little collection of MJ magazines (will write about him later since I am still, deep inside, feel a little bit of my childhood been taken away from me due to his death) as well as, surprise surprise, a wee bit of Little Miss books! I seriously enjoy reading those pocket books because we tend to forget that life is actually pretty simple, and proper language is pretty simple too.

I want to buy more books, seriously, but on a second thought, maybe I should stop for a while and actually read all those of the above. My room is pretty much a library at the moment, you can pick and choose a whole bunch of stuffs to read! Now I feel like taking an MC or something, just to chill and read those babies :)

And oh, my current read now: The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. Read and re-read it. A change is gonna come, I must say :)

Yes there I was, hiding behind all those books that i bought for the past month (two of them are actually from my father, my birthday presents actually! I have yet to read them yet!).

I have planned to travel this month, actually, however I have to call off my plan due to the epidemic that is called swine flu. Thus I have to settle with a staycation instead in 2 weeks time. I will be on a longer leave as I will be travelling up north for my cousin's wedding, will be busy by then (damn I seriously am in love with her hantarans! Will snap the photos should I have the time to do so). I will resume my KL staycation once I reached KL then. It would be fun I suppose, though I seriously need to be away from my laptop and have a good read instead.

My face was still full of glee prior to the bloody incident with the evil a.k.a. Facebook, who does not allow me to upload dozens of photos from my camera there. Yeah I still am pretty much pissed at them at the moment, we'll see what I'll do next.

Or maybe I shall call my two bodyguards to kick those asses of the bloody Facebook peeps. Wanna see my new minions?

Yeah, Allen-Lambert, i.e. my benches.

And with that, ladies and gentlemen, I shall say "good night". See you guys again really soon (I hope!)

I Was Played

Cheh title cam poyo jer :p hahahahahhaa!!!!

Kenapa title tu? Jap lagi la aku citer.



Father's Day

Today's Father's Day so.... Happy Father's Day to all dads (and future dads out there, ye korang aku tau korang bukak blog nihhhhhh) across the board. I didn't do anything much, other than running around the shopping malls hunting for the present for my dad. As always, I love taking charge of buying the gift, though it ends up with me shopping for a little something for myself LOL. My mom, my bro and I ended up pooling some cash to get some pressie for dad.

Yang lawaknye, the first shoe adalah tak muat ok. Salah size, needs bigger kasut!

So I took both my sisters out to KLCC again and exchanged the shoes. Damn tak jumpa2 size jugaks. Sampailah ke kasut yang kesepuluh ke dua belas ke... barula mendapat LOL! The shoes fit perfectly. Gahhhh so happy!

So Happy Father's Day, Daddy :) I am more than happy that finally I get to lessen the burden on your shoulder, taking more responsibilities at home and all that. Feels more.. grown-up. Yeah.





Happy Birthday, Kris Allen!

Yeah you all know that I am a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge Kris Allen fan. I have been actively participating in a bunch of boards, requesting for his songs on the radio, promoting him in my own way (tahap pakcik jual cd sims pun i bantai promo ok). And yeah, I use my actual name since I am so crappy at giving myself any AI-like nickname LOL :p Met many cool fans of the Kradam too! And yeah, I am obsessed with Kradam LOL!

So kalau takde besday post for Krissy mcm tak sah la kan, kan Shanim kan???? hehehehe....


Happy Birthday, Kris! I am so happy for you and I want only the best for you (erm.... if both Adam and you are indeed together I will be supporting you too, though I so doubt it will happen). Can't wait to watch your performances on tour (albeit on Youtube) and buying your album as well! And of course I will buy Adam's too :)


Dah lama dah support any artist camni, and now I am supporting in full force :) walaupun tahu agak impossible untuk Adam or Kris untuk sampai ke Malaysia.


Heck, if BSB finally dapat gak datang Malaysia dan aku dapattt gak tgk konsert diorang, I can always hope, right?


Happy birthday, Kris BB!!!!

And oh, the title of today's post is actually from one of Kris' older works. I love that song, as well as Brand New Shoes :D

p/s: wonder what will Adam get for Kris as a bday present.... a metro grooming set incl guyliner maybe? LOL!

Glamorous

I have been trying to sort out my plans for my future. At least, am trying to do so. Since I sort of fail to achieve what I really want to have when I reached my 27th birthday recently, i.e. getting married (crap, I know you guys are so gonna be beating me down should i moan about my emotional fcukery on how lonely I am at this life's juncture), I figure it is time for me to sit down, accepting the truth and well, finally start planning about my future. I have been rather complacent lately with what do I want in this life, the drive to move up further and what not, since I am, as at the moment, am in good terms with regard to my current job (there are times where I thought, am I really..........? But I would rather work my ass of and we'll see where things are going. Because yeah, being in P is in my dream come true, it's the idea of be seen as a "legal personnel" of some sort is the one that kind of bugs me LOL :p).

Enough about that. Yes I know I should stop ranting about that. Seems too much information, eh?

I have been thinking about what do I want for my future, where do I see myself to be and to do. Short-term and long-term. Funnily enough, it began on Friday night, where my colleague and I went browsing for some books in Kinokuniya before watching a movie. Immediately the parts of my brain which has been dozing off for quite sometime starts waking up. To make things even funnier, I even take the idea even more seriously after watching the said movie.

Guess what's the title of the movie.

It's 17 again.

Laugh all you want, snicker for all you care, because seriously there is a hidden message on life in that movie other than seeing Zacquisha prancing around with a b-ball and touting around his six (or is it eight) pack stomach.

I do not want to look back, wishing that i did something else differently, and then moaning about how I should have done it differently, or else my life won't be this fucked up (yeah, you got me there). Indeed, there are times where I wished I can undo my past mistakes (the major ones, seriously) because, damn, I can't believe how crazily stupid I was back then. But to look back and moan, no. I do not want that.

Yet I have yet to think of my own future. I have been living for the moment for quite sometimes, and yes, I bitch around about the fact that I am single and unmarried and lonely and childless and sleeping alone at night and yadda yadda full-on crap.

Perhaps the reason being is that I might have seen being married is the answer to everything.

Damn, that sounds very Ross in Friends doesn't it?

So I made up my mind to think about what do I want for my future and noticed that I do crave for finer things in life. In other words, wanting to have a glamorous life. And limitless freedom.

I am used to say that money is not everything, having a luxurious life does not guarantee happiness. But why on earth am I craving for all these highly overpriced things? Am I downgrading myself to one of those biatches that I called shallow and empty-headed? Am I one of those women too?

Scary eh.

But on a second thought, it's fine to have a dream. Perhaps by having a rather unrealistic goal or aim, it'll push me to at least do better in life.

The term "aim high" is indeed, rightfully coined.

I am still figuring out what do I want to see and what do I need to have in future. But it's nice to know that I am starting to do so. Now.

So there you have it, friends and family (if any, and I am suspecting my boss reads this space too, since he asked me whether I do have a blog-garnnnnn!!!!! Thank goodness I have deleted my Friendster blog because damn, my writings then were even worse! I just maintain my silence about this one, though).

Talk to you later (and yes Am, I know I have a long over due birthday entry hehehe.. perhaps I will do that one once I am done mapping out my future plan LOL :D).

See you soon!

the boy is mine

media hiburan nih... if at all you all nak jual magazine pun, amik laa citer baru, this is dua tiga bulan lepas punye stori maa!!!

anyhoo there's a story behind the said gambar. ini bukan gambar sebenar, ekceli gambar yang di-edit oleh icebar (or was it kworb or supermeklot) di IDF. good job you guys! and shame on you, wartawan yang menulis tuh. do your homework la next time.

talk to you all soon ok... baru belajar nak main sims 3 nih :p

The Climb

Hello peeps!

Yeah I know that it's been eternity since the last time I have actually blogged here. Bukan sebab tidak ada cerita yang hendak diceritakan, bukan sebab tidak ada gambar baru yang diambil, bukan sebab farah sudah tidak mahu menulis lagi.

Sebab sibuk dan juga, ya, agak kemurungan kerana umur sudah meningkat.

Sehinggakan tidak lagi menjengah blog mana-mana kawan pun dalam tempoh seminggu dua ini.

Masih banyak lagi mesej dan e-mel yang belum berjawab. Masih ramai lagi sahabat handai yang mahu saya telefon tetapi tidak mendapat kesempatan untuk menelefon.

Cerita tentang hari lahir? Biasa sahaja. Cukup jika saya katakan saya ada banyak buku untuk dibaca sehingga 6 bulan akan datang. Ya, ada banyak. Terima kasih kepada semua yang mengucapkan selamat hari lahir kepada diri ini :)

Cerita tentang kawan yang berumahtangga? Ada juga. Tahniah kepada mereka.

Baru mendapat tahu bahawa nenek Yam telah meninggal dunia. Rasa amat ralat kerana tidak tahu lebih awal tentang itu. Tak tahu sama ada sekarang adalah masa yang sesuai untuk menelefonnya. Takziah untuk keluarga sahabat saya ini.

Ramai juga kawan yang menyambut hari lahir dalam seminggu dua ini. Fellow geminians seperti saya juga. Selamat hari lahir ok.

Bukan saya tidak mahu mengepos gambar2 serta buku2 baru dan pengalaman baru mahupun apa juga, tapi saya rasa masa ini adalah kurang sesuai, kerana ada sahabat yang sedang berduka. Mungkin sehari dua lagi barulah saya akan bercerita ok.

Tentang masalah kemurungan saya itu. Hah, bukan satu perkara baru untuk semua orang bila mendapat tahu saya kemurungan bila umur meningkat. Saya memberitahu majikan saya beberapa hari yang lalu, saya perlu bercuti. Perlu mengambil cuti seketika kerana agak sedikit tertekan. Tekanan kerja tidaklah seteruk yang disangka, walaupun ada kalanya rasa macam hendak sepak terajang muka ramai orang (saya bagaikan tidak percaya saya boleh mengawal perasaan amarah saya ini, anda maklum saya adalah amat dikenali dengan aksi menjerit serta membaling barang sampai semua benda tunggang langgang. menahan kesabaran mungkin.). Cuma perasaan diri sendiri yang agak bergolak. Justeru perlu sedikit waktu untuk menerima hakikat kehidupan. Mencari ketenangan jiiwa. Sempat bercerita dengan jiran cubie merangkap geng yang cool serta bos (she's our manager) tentang kemurungan saya kerana umur yang meningkat. I got a whole lot of perspective by just talking to her, a fellow Geminian who shares a birthday with Wahida (happy bday sweetie) and my old fren Ayam. She's really great and i look up to her a lot i tell you.

Dan apabila saya membuka kembali blog rakan2 yang lain, pelbagai cerita juga dibaca. Ada yang gembira, ada yang tangis.

Maybe my life is not that bad after all.

But for now, yes, I am thinking of taking a time off. Suggestions? Must be a place that has a beach and great view. Am thinking of going to JB (dan ke Singapura selepas itu) tetapi kos perlu diambil kira juga. Sedang berkira2 untuk menaiki kereta api ke sana. Saya ingin sekali melihat pemandangan saujana mata memandang. Pokok2, jalan2 kampung. Sesuatu yang berbeza daripada menaiki kapal terbang. Cadangan tentang tempat yang sesuai di JB? Hotels in singapore are hellishly pricey and I do not want to crash in to my aunts' or uncles' or tok long's house there. Summore I am quite well-versed on the roads there anyhoo, and quite an expert in jumping from one MRT station to another there. Hmm.

Saya berehat untuk sementara waktu untuk update diri sendiri tentang cerita ceriti rakan2 yang lain. Saya akan bertandang ke blog anda semua pula ok.

Jumpa lagi.

p/s: on a separate note, told you so on adam lambert's confession! i knew it!!! kris allen is a cutie anyhoo... and i cant believe that i was indeed right all along :) ok this one deserves a separate entry altogether and I will write about it when the right time comes.