pelangi petang

i would like to take all of you back to an event of which still remain clear in my memory. i think i have told you guys about it in person the whole story, but one night i was watching the television and upon watching the show, i cried. and began to reminisce my old days.

it was one of the first showcases that i have ever attended. i was only four years old then. i followed my mom to attend this showcase of a singer of whom i was a fan. punyela excited ikut mak, i wore this ivory / off white gown and my hair was straight, shoulder length.

and i got called to be on the stage. with a boy (tah sape tak budak tu saya bukannye kenal pun).

and the singer asked me, what is your name. i pronounced my name in all my pelatness glory. and he said :

"fayahhh noyayiiiiii????????"

and the audience laughed, and i was embarassed. malu mak nyah.... tapi gediks gak nyanyi sampai sudah ehehe (and i still keep the gambar okkkk!!!!!)

yeah the singer was allahyarham sudirman hj arshad. and the show that was on tv few nites ago was anak gemilang malaysia. i watched it with my mom and i told her, "i still cant forget it, i was soooo embarassed on stage!!!!!".

hehehe.

bukan nak mengutuk artis skarang tapi most artis (particularly kalau awak tu cun giler) tak de gaduh nak perform even better and put very much effort into their craft. balik2 nak kejar duit, kejar laki orang, kontroversi sana sini. tu yang dia banggakan sangat. takde perasaan nak memotivatekan diri jadi lebih baik. shame on them. sudirman 20 thn lepas bleh buat lagi bagus dari diorang, yang skarang ni dah ada mcm2 kemudahan. dah naik lemak sangat kot dema nihs.

that's why saya jadi malas nak ikut perkembangan hiburan malaysia nih. not many would go to great lengths to perfect their skills and craft. tahpape tah.

i have a lot of respect for arwah sudir. he graduated from UM and he got called to the Bar. some peeps baru ada LLB (without hons) dah nak berlagak cam dier tu lawyer besar sangat, canang2 yang "i ni lawyer okkkk" dekat press. i have respect for ppl who completed their full degree (llb and hons), like annahita for example, she completed her studies. and she's such a down to earth person :)

ok coming back to sudirman, i still wonder why dia tak lagi dapat penghargaan tinggi dari kerajaan. i understand that a road has been named in his honour. artis2 lain dah dapat datuk lar whatever la, takde saper nak bagi sudirman ni datukship. tho dia lagi dulu nyanyi and menang award kat royal albert hall tu. tho showmanship dier lagi bagus daripada most singers skarang ni. lagu2 dia menusuk kalbu and bleh buat orang menangis mendengarnya. i still cry whenever i listened to Salam Terakhir. sedih tau. biler dengar lagu balik kampung rasa cam nak balik kampung (walaupun setakat balik KL daripada shah alam tu).

and biler tengok pak nil nangis dalam that documentary, saya pun nangis gaks. i am also a huge fan of aznil, and am also proud of the fact that pak nil bangga dengan asalnya sebagai orang keramat, kl (macam saya jugak). he proved that orang keramat mcm kitorang ni pun bagus jugak, bleh berjaya dalam hidup kalau kerja keras. and pak nil has a pleasant personality in person menyebabkan kita pun rasa laaaagi minat dan hormat kat dia. idup keramat, pak nil!!!

seriously, something should be done. biler saya tgk FFM smalam ada gaks tribute untuk p ramlee (another idol of mine), we should have as well more tribute to allahyarham sudirman. saya tak kisah apapun punca yang menyebabkan dia meninggal dunia dalam usia yang sangat muda, kita semua kena terima hakikatnya yang dia sudah tiada dan memanfaatkan harta paling berharga yang dia tinggalkan untuk kita semua: memori lagu2 dan persembahan beliau. i was sad to hear that his last manager took all his money and whatever (i think it was on newspapers and all that long time ago) and he was rumored to be dead without any penny sebab manager yg keji tu sudah songlap duit dia. tragis. kalau lah benar apa yang dikata di dada media cetak itu, memang jahat betul orang itu. tapi kalau kita makan duit orang lain dengan cara haram memang tak akan berkat soooooo untuk 'tikus besar' (my nickname kepada mana2 pencuri) itu.... PERGI MAMPUS LA ENGKAU. moga Allah beri balasan yang setimpal kat tikus besar itu. jahat punye orang.

i will always have the memory of being on the stage with him for only a moment and i'll cherish it forever. walaupun gambar saya masa tu tak sama langsung cam skarang. eheheh.

sudirman tatap manjadi poooooooooooojaan hatiku!